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yanxiaobioo ([info]yanxiaobioo) wrote,
@ 2010-06-02 01:56:00

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I never wanted to make you care for me so, and I...
I never wanted to make you care for me so, and I went away to keep you from it if I couldIt was like you, but it was no useI only loved you all the more, and I worked hard to please you, and I gave up billiards and everything you didn't like, and waited and never complained, for I hoped you'd love me, though I'm not half good enough Here there was a choke that couldn't be controlled, so he decapitated buttercups while he cleared his `confounded throat'
"You, you are, you're a great deal too good for me, and I'm so grateful to you, and so proud and fond of you, I don't know why I can't love you as you want me toI've tried, but I can't change the feeling, and it would be a lie to say I do when I don't
"Really, truly, Jo?" He stopped short, and caught both her hands as he put his question with a look that she did not soon forget
"Really, truly, dear
They were in the grove now, close by the stile, and when the last words fell reluctantly from Jo's lips, Laurie dropped her hands and turned as if to go on, but for once in his life the fence was too much for himSo he just laid his head down on the mossy post, and fendi spy replica stood so still that Jo was frightened
"Oh, Teddy, I'm sorry, so desperately sorry, I could kill myself if it would do any good! I wish you wouldn't take it so hard, I can't help itYou know it's impossible for people to make themselves love other people if they don't," cried Jo inelegantly but remorsefully, as she softly patted his shoulder, remembering the time when he had comforted her so long ago
"They do sometimes," said a muffled voice from the post"I don't believe it's the right sort of love, and I'd rather not try it," was the decided answer
There was a long pause, while a blackbird sung blithely on the willow by the river, and the tall grass rustled in the windPresently Jo said very soberly, as she sat down on the step of the stile, "Laurie, I want to tell you something
He started as if he had been shot, threw up his head, and cried out in a fierce tone, "Don't tell me that, Jo, I can't bear it now!"
"Tell what?" she asked, wondering at his violence
"That you love that old man
"What old man?" demanded Jo, thinking he must mean his grandfather
"That devilish Professor you were always writing louis cartier aboutIf you say you love him, I know I shall do something desperate And he looked as if he would keep his word, as he clenched his hands with a wrathful spark in his eyes
Jo wanted to laugh, but restrained herself and said warmly, for she too, was getting excited with all this, "Don't swear, Teddy! He isn't old, nor anything bad, but good and kind, and the best friend I've got, next to youPray, don't fly into a passionI want to be kind, but I know I shall get angry if you abuse my ProfessorI haven't the least idea of loving him or anybody else
"But you will after a while, and then what will become of me?"
"You'll love someone else too, like a sensible boy, and forget all this trouble
"I can't love anyone else, and I'll never forget you, Jo, Never! Never!" with a stamp to emphasize his passionate words
"What shall I do with him?" sighed Jo, finding that emotions were more unmanagable than she expected"You haven't heard what I wanted to tell youSit down and listen, for indeed I want to do right and make you happy," she said, hoping to soothe him with a little reason, which proved that she knew nothing about omega speedmaster replica love
Seeing a ray of hope in that last speech, Laurie threw himself down on the grass at her feet, leaned his arm on the lower step of the stile, and looked up at her with an expectant faceNow that arrangement was not conducive to calm speech or clear thought on Jo's part, for how could she say hard things to her boy while he watched her with eyes full of love and longing, and lashes still wet with the bitter drop or two her hardness of heart had wrung from him? She gently turned his head away, saying, as she stroked the wavy hair which had been allowed to grow for her sake--how touching that was, to be sure! "I agree with Mother that you and I are not suited to each other, because our quick tempers and strong wills would probably make us very miserable, if we were so foolish as to Jo paused a little over the last word, but Laurie uttered it with a rapturous expression
"Marry--no we shouldn't! If you loved me, Jo, I should be a perfect saint, for you could make me anything you likeI've tried and failed, and I won't risk our happiness by such a serious experimentWe don't agree and we never shall, so we'll be good gucci purses friends all our lives, but we won't go and do anything rash
"Yes, we will if we get the chance," muttered Laurie rebelliously
"Now do be reasonable, and take a sensible view of the case," implored Jo, almost at her wit's end
"I won't be reasonableI don't want to take what you call `a sensible view'It won't help me, and it only makes it harderI don't believe you've got any heart

"I wish I hadn't
There was a little quiver in Jo's voice, and thinking it a good omen, Laurie turned round, bringing all his persuasive powers to bear as he said, in the wheedlesome tone that had never been so dangerously wheedlesome before, "Don't disappoint us, dear! Everyone expects itGrandpa has set his heart upon it, your people like it, and I can't get on without youSay you will, and let's be happyDo, do!"
Not until months afterward did Jo understand how she had the strength of mind to hold fast to the resolution she had made when she decided that she did not love her boy, and never couldIt was very hard to do, but she did it, knowing that delay was both useless and cruel
"I can't say `yes' truly, so I won't say it at gucci ladies watch all


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